So my journey took a small detour on Monday.  I went in for my surgery and it was not successful.  The doctor put 4 incisions in and attempted the surgery.  My liver was in his way.  It is 5 times the size it is supposed to be because of all the chemicals my tumor is letting off. So, the surgery was stopped.  Of all the surgeries my surgeon has done, he has never had one he could not complete himself.  This is a first for him.  They took the breathing tube out of my throat and woke me up to talk to me about the surgery.  I was still under too heavy of sedation and I coded on them.  They had to rapidly put another breathing tube in and bag me to get me back.  They then stuck me on a vent for a while.  I woke up in ICU on a vent and as quickly as I could convinced them to get the vent out.  I was on oxygen the rest of the evening into Tuesday.  I was sent home, straight from ICU, on Tuesday.  I still feel like crap, but am getting better.

Since my surgeon could not do this surgery, I am being referred to a specialist in St Louis, Missouri at Barnes Jewish Hospital.  It is the only surgeon in the state that my doctor knows can do this surgery.  My surgery has to be special.  My adrenal gland and tumor will have to come out through my back, instead of through the side.  I am nervous about this but at least I can still move forward with recovery.  It just sounds like it might be a little longer than I originally anticipated.  I looked up information on my new specialist and he was voted Best Surgeon in America last year.  Good to hear that I have the best doctors taking care of me.  I have to call tomorrow for a follow up with my surgeon and to find out details about my appointment in St Louis.  It will be next week.

I am thankful for life. Thankful for my friends and family and all the prayers I know are coming my way.  I am especially thankful for my husband and oldest daughter, Sabriana.  They were there asking questions and figuring things out for me when I couldn't do it for myself.  I love them so much and just wish they didn't have to go through this.