Today was another interesting day in my journey. I woke up with my feet and legs swelling.  I immediately put a call in to my surgeon.  After being on hold for about 10 minutes, I was told the doctor wanted an ultrasound of my legs to make sure I didn't have a blood clot.  So, I called my mom and she came in and took me to the doctor.  It took an hour for the ultrasound, but in the end they said no blood clots.  This was good news.  I was told to just elevate my feet and legs and the swelling should go down.  Unfortunately, this has not worked yet and in fact they seem to be getting bigger at times.  But, I will continue to follow medical advise and elevate.

I have my follow up with my surgeon next Tuesday.  I guess I am going to have to call my specialist in St. Louis to see when my appointment will be there.  I am concerned that when I looked up general information about him I learned that he specializes in endocrine cancer.  I don't know if this is an indication that they feel I have cancer also, or if it is just a coincidence.  Only time will tell for sure. 

I think Monday has really messed with my brain and mental state.  Going in for what was supposed to be a "routine" surgery where I woke up in the recovery room and then went to a regular room was flusterating enough.  To actually wake up in an ICU room on a respirator was terrifying to me.  I could hear people talking around me, but it was very difficult to open my eyes and keep them open.  It was also a very weird sensation to have something down my throat and in my lungs that was actually breathing for me.  I don't know if I will ever be able to fully shake that feeling.  I just kept mouthing "what happened" because I couldn't understand what was going on.  It makes me even that much more nervous about this next surgery.